STILL-LIFE polaroids by Andy Warhol (taken between 1977 - 1838). Interestingly, some of Warhol’s most famous artworks also include these objects - particularly, the banana, gun, and Campbell’s soup can.
beeline towards my own front door, past the reunion in your room. you’re staying away, i’ll just erase your name right off the face of the whiteboard. i fill this space with antidotes, and other people’s momentos. you’re staying away, i won’t do the same, i can’t. you’re not my friends, you’re not. you’re not my friends, on the whiteboard in the kitchen.
so stop pretending. it’s freezing in my room, it’s always cold. i stripped these walls of “home”. you’re staying away, i won’t do the same, i can’t. you’re not my friends, you’re not. you’re not my friends, on the whiteboard in the kitchen. so stop pretending. you’re my best friend, but on the surface, no, you’re not. and no one’s in the middle; it’s always empty.
the first time i ever felt alive, i was fourteen when he clocked me right in the eye. i thought that i was bleeding, but i confused the blood with my sweat dripping down my lens. what a horrible thought i had, when i thought i wouldn’t be coming back to this punk rock band with low self-esteem. and the sad songs they sang to you, you often misconstrued the liturgy with something sweet, like an autobiographical movie.
and if this is what being alive feels like,
then let me feel alive.